Sunday, June 29, 2008
bookin in... boring...
din get to play ball... miss playin ball so much....
sianz... things plz dun get worse....
start of the nightmare.
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20:18
so much for 1st book out....
2day was my very first book out.... tot can have some time w her.
in the end i dun
but catchin up w my family n frds was good..
went meng's birthday....
went movie w the my platoon-mates.... doze off in between din realli enjoy the show
saw tian wei smokin wtf is wrong w him?
i quit n he picked it up? is he nuts?
i think i can understand wat alex is thinking now...
its painful...
but no choices....
this destiny....
lotsa thing/words/thoughts goin tru mi
not sure if any1 noes it.
lazy to say it out too...
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04:40
Saturday, June 28, 2008
1st book out....
yesh.... everythings so wonderful...
bens n jerry taste lik heaven's water....
nth else is better then come out here.
trainin is killing/tearin mi apart
i miss everything out here...
sometimes i wish u can understand n feel wat i m goin thru....
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14:49
Thursday, June 12, 2008
11 hours to "for honor n glory."
haha actually dun feel so bad on the last day.
quite relieve actually...
growned up? or hecked?
dunno la
walk 1 step see 1 step...
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21:09
offically 1 day...
enlisting 2ml....
i will b missing every1 and my hair...
awww....
went zouk last nite...
woah got real tipsy....
quite sad when gil always tio tai ji i m not there.
so sry man.
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15:05
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
cant slp...
even though i m feeling lik crappy at the moment.
had dinner w my cousins(aka god-slibings)
stella couldnt make it coz she has to work.
coincidently, we all wear nike tops.
we are the nike family.
ate so many things,
round 1
bro(chicken chop), evon(FnC), hui n mi(sirloin steak) share(cheese fries)
round 2
bro(mince pork noodle, mi n hui(share 1 bowl of laksa)
round 3
some dim sum w fried chicken wings n cheese fries.
woah... can u handle it?
dunno wat to do/say.
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01:50
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
countin down...
3 more days to enlistment.
still thinkin abt it...
inevitably i m sad....
somehow lik there is so many things wanna say,
but certain things is jus reduntant now...
it jus so dramatic.....
8 years ago....
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14:32
Monday, June 9, 2008
1 day closer to enlistment....
packed my table and gettin my stuff rdy for enlistment.
another long day, feels lik shit now..
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16:27
i suck being a captain i think.
i can dun feel like plyin for 2days game n jus let it go lik tt.
lost 20 odd points... wonderful!!!
my job is to bring up the team.... but wat was i doin
floatin ard? haha u suck as a captain, xiang.
i realli wanna have u by my side.
i noe i m not the kind of guy u will like .i dunno wat u are thinkini realli dunno wat i m suppose to do now... tell mi pLZ! there were so many words in my mind, i wanna say.... i swallow all the words, i realise there isnt any point sayin anymore.
take good care of urself.
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03:16
Saturday, June 7, 2008
vengence is always sweet. repay rp for wad they did to mi previously at rp.
scorpios are petty, nv trife w a scorpio.
she came for my game 2day, somehow both of us feels v awkward. but tt's inevitable.
it cant b changed ba... i guess....
gave her the bracelet and the stars(which i think it look lik shit) i made.
dunno does she lik it not, but i guess it is not goin to make any different ba.
i jus hope things will b better for her ba....
i still like/love and miss her badly.
but it makes mi feel lik shit, when thing is bad.
things wun change anyway.
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23:18
i m going to stop smoking...
for whatever reason...
with foul mood... not realli foul, but jus dun realli feel lik toking.
lets see who is the unlucky 1 2nite. make it on the court would b better.
at the end of the day i noe u will still picked him. you dun have to say sorry, cause we don't know what each other is going through. there is no rite/wrong in love, no1 to pin point or blame on.
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12:55
i toked things out w her...
at the most unsuitable situation.
i think tt's the end for us....
nv did i regret for watever happened.
i realli do love/like with all i have.
but love cant b force,
all of us noe it. i jus have to let it go....
haiz...
i m still hopin she do come for my game tml/lata...
which i think its not gonna happen....
ZHI XIANG GROW UP!!!
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05:31
Friday, June 6, 2008
offically 1 wk, 7 days, to commando.
sounds good.. but feels lik shit...
not lookin forward to any terms of disappear from society.
2day had my hair cut n family gathering...
i think i had a rather funny hair, look so boyish.
it wun make any diff once i enlist.
it will all b gone!!!
steamboat was good...
quite fun... drank booze... need more...
tell mi wat u r thinkin plz...
i do need to noe =)....
tellin mi thing straight is ezier for mi to accept.
是我想太多, 你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我.
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03:02
Thursday, June 5, 2008
quite a tiring day....
walked ard town w gary 2day to look for my stuff after collectin our transcript n cert
n
thankz to coach...
i m pissed n have to put my players aeroplane again...
call mi so kan chiong in the afternoon ask mi look for players
tell mi WRS when i alrdy reached n gathered every1... simi lai eh....
CARE FOR UR OWN PLAYERS 1st PLZ, ESP UR CAPTAIN(ME).
nvm....
ate at kovan sakae n went to watch "made of honor" w her after tt.
movie... so so la... time w her is more important.
after tt she cried suddenly when we were sittin down outside cathay.
i dunno y too... wish she will tell mi...
sometimes i realli dunno wat she is thinkin either.
but... i m enlistin soon... sianz...
8days more.
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03:09
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
9 days b4 enlistment....
oh god... i dun1 to enlist yet..
见过你的美
我还能爱谁
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01:32
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
jus came back from bangkok last tue nite...
so many things happen... in sg b4 bkk, over at bkk n back in sg.
lareina's "handbag" got cut n lost her wallet, partly my bad.
coz i spill lemon tea into her bag on the 1st dinner.
so she had to use the levis "bag".
i feel 幸福 when she is ice-ing my hand at bkk.
dun think there will b another chance
jus another EMO shit.
sort of quite a screw up at PL league.... need to do better...
anyway.. this wkend is the last 2 game b4 enlistment. doesnt realli matter anymore.
well... some other things bothers mi more.
goin commando in 10 days....
but its not about enlistment, something else tt's important to me.
dunno wat to do... yet dun feel lik doin... can/may i not enlist now?
m gettin paranoid... crazy sia... guy paranoid quite gay.
ARGH!!!! FUCK IT LA!!!! i dunno wat to blog liaoz....
i like this song.
人生不能从来,
往事就只能回味
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23:08